I'm okay

I think things are going to be ok. I'm VERY relieved. I was practically sick with anxiety today because I was such a brat last night and things were awkward and horrible and I didn't make things any better with how I was behaving. I can't change getting worried over things, but I'm going to try to change how I react to those situations (or the way my worry manifests itself). New resolution. And yes, even though it's loads past New Year's, it still counts because I say so. I refuse to let myself fuck this up. I am NOT going to let myself ruin things. I refuse.

And because I'm digging lyrics again big time:

Skylines & Turnstiles

You're not in this alone,
Let me break this awkward silence,
Let me go, go on record
Be the first to say I'm sorry
Hear me out,
Well if you take me down,
Or would you lay me out,
And if the world needs something better,
Let's give them one more reason now, now, now

We walk in single file
We light our rails and punch our time
Ride escalators colder than a cell

This broken city sky, like butane on my skin
and stolen from my eyes
Hello Angel, tell me where are you
Tell me where we go from here
Tell me where we go...
-MCR (of course)

Listening to: My Chemical Romance, I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love