A very short story...

I've been tagged by Alcarwen to write a story in 55 words...here goes:

She sat quietly at the sticky, square table, slowly stirring her milky coffee. The pouring rain was taunting her as it flung itself down on the steamy pavement, sacrificing itself to nature. She knew her time was at an end and with a sigh of reluctance stood and walked slowly into the downpour.

(Ok, two words short, so sue me:)


In turn I tag husband and wife...c'mon, give it a try! I dare you :)
~Sasha

AAARGH

Ok, I'm not sure what's going on but I really want to either scream, cry or hit something. I am so supremely irritated/annoyed/pissed off that I can hardly hold it in. It hasn't been any one thing today, just general annoyance. I've noticed that I've been like this more and more lately. I'm ok when I first get to work-smiling and all- but by 11am or so I'm so pissed off I could scream. I think part of it is a certain person I work with. Wait, more like I work she doesn't do a damn thing. She might be "working" on something while a line of patients grows as I try frantically to check them all in and she won't even offer to help. She disappears for hours at a time and doesn't even do much when she's at the desk. It really enrages me. Our supervisor doesn't seem to mind/notice that this person doesn't do anything, in fact, the two of them shoot the breeze for hours (during the work day!) and it doesn't seem to occurr to supervisor that if my co-worker is in her office shooting the shit, she clearly can't be working at the same time. Who get's in trouble if something isn't done right b/c I'm up to my eyeballs in work? Me of course, while co-worker sits and gossips with other co-workers.

While I'm at it, let me just say that yes, it's criminal that the doctors allow there to be four patients seen in a fifteen minute period and of course they'll never manage to stay on schedule, but I hate it when the patients bitch at me about how late the doctor is running just because I'm the one sitting here at the check-in desk. I don't schedule patients. I don't have anything to do with how many people they see nor do I have any control over the doctors. In fact, they don't even know I'm alive--i'm akin to gum on the bottom of their overpriced loafers. I understand that the patients have better things to do than wait for hours at the doctor's office but I wish they wouldn't bitch at me--bitch at someone that can do something about the problem. Tell the bloody doctor that you're pissed off waiting for an hour and a half. Oh, but, nooo, they can't possibly complain to the doctor, for god's sake, he's got M.D. after his name. Nope, better to bitch at the people that can't do a damn thing about the problem. Yeah, so that pisses me off.

It also pisses me off when patients just drop in and expect to be seen without an appointment. I mean, if it hurts that badly, go to the freaking emergency room! Don't just drop into the office. It screws everything up and gets into the situation of my rant above. It also pisses me off when other people (nurses, doctors etc.) tell a patient to come in but then don't tell the scheduler, so the appointment doesn't get made and I look like a moron when the patient shows up and says they have an appt but it isn't in the computer. For god's sake! Follow through on what you started!! Sheesh.

One final irritating situation. Ok, so our doctor is running late, but you can only complain about how long you've been waiting once your appointment time had passed. If you get here an hour early, you can't bitch about waiting an hour. You can bitch beginning one minute after your scheduled appointment time, but not a second sooner.

Usually I have much more patience than this but I'm not sure what's going on now. I have no tolerance for idiots, people that don't do their job and people that treat me like shit and expect me to take it. If I didn't need this paycheck I'd tell everyone to go f*$@ off.

Yeah, it's one of those days.
Sasha

My Chemical Romance

Wow...the concert was amazing!!! So, maybe I was one of the older people there that wasn't there with my kids, but that's ok. It was so fun and MCR gave an absolutely great show. I was a little nervous about the general admission part of it, but managed to get myself a good seat on the right side of the stage (if you're looking at the stage). Sure, main floor would have been more fun, but that's ok. There were two other bands that played before MCR, Reggie and the Full Effect and Alkaline Trio. I'm afraid Reggie and the Full Effect just wasn't my thing--mostly noise to be honest. Alkaline Trio was really good though and they played a number of songs that I know and like, so that was good. Of course, I was really there just to see My Chemical Romance:)

So, MCR...they played every song off of "Three Cheers" and a bunch of songs off of "I Brought You My Bullets". They pretty much played non-stop with very little talking between songs which was good. I kind of thought that Green Day did too much talking and not enough playing. I mean, I love Green Day and agree with a lot of Billie Joe Armstrong's political views, but I paid to hear them sing, not talk (or at least not talk too much). MCR went right from one song into the next, though Gerard Way did stop at one point to ask a member of their road crew to come out and make an announcement. Turns out his announcement was to propose to his girlfriend! It was really kind of cute and the crowd went crazy which was cool. God, they were fantastic, I'd see them again in a second. I just can't get over how high-energy the whole thing was, practically electric. Yeah i was a dork and sang along, was hoarse the next day from it, but it was definitely worth it. I really hope they come back to Michigan sometime relatively soon, they were awesome. Ok, and for the really embarassingly girly moment--yeah, Gerard and Mikey Way and Frank Iaro are all totally hot and I've seen them live. Right, enough of that, I've embarassed myself enough for now:)



Suffice to say, you should go see My Chemical Romance & Alkaline Trio. You may be surrounded by teenage girls but they give a fantastic show. Well worth the money!! Check these albums out: MCR "Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge"; MCR "I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love" and Alkaline Trio "Crimson"--all available in the iTunes music store. Happy listening!
Ciao~
Sasha

TGIF/Music rants and raves

Yeah, pretty thrilled that it's Friday. It's been a long week of stupid people getting on my nerves, incompetent bosses, crisis situations (that aren't really a crisis but the boss thinks they are) etc, etc. Monday and Tuesday were really bad. I actually had to step back into the store-room, jump around making irritated faces and generally blow off some steam before I said something that might get me fired. The job may be boring, but it's a paycheck and it's better to have some sort of an income than none.

Should be a fun weekend. Out to the bar tonight to meet a social group (if it sucks at least I'll have a beer in my hand, and if it's fun, I'll be enjoying myself and will have a beer in hand). Possibly meeting up with other friends after this happy hour thing, so that would be good. It'll be good to get out of the house and away from the parents. Not that I don't love them, but so much "quality time" is beginning to make me a basketcase.
Best part of the weekend should be tomorrow night...the My Chemical Romance concert! Woo hoo! I am so excited about it it's kind of pathetic. I hope it's an awesome show. I can't get over how much I like their second album, Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge. I mean, awesome title just to begin with and I think every song is really solid. It isn't one of those albums where you like maybe one or two songs and the rest sucks. I like the whole thing and the more I listen to it the more I like it. I got their first album off of iTunes and I think it has a lot of really good stuff on it too. It's always great to find music that you really love, especially when it can seem like everything 'new' out there is just the same old stuff. I mean, do we really need yet another blonde, teeny-bopper-ish, actor/wanna-be singer putting out a cd? (I'm not going to name names, fill in your own teeny-bopper).

To continue my music rant, I really used to like Coldplay, when they FIRST came out. I'm so sick of them now and that new song "Fix you" (or "Fix Me" whatever the heck it's called) is so bloody annoying. I can't stand it. This is why I hate listening to the radio, you may like a song at first but then it gets so overplayed you end up hating it (and maybe the band itself as well). Ok, I'll get off my soapbox now. I'm just happy to have found some new music I really like and I'll stop before I begin irritating myself by liking a band too much and going on and on.

I think I need to start writing poetry again. I've been thinking about it and feel that it might be another good outlet for some of the stuff I'm feeling and going through right now. I'll have to dig out my old stuff and maybe post a few. I have no delusions, I don't even imagine my stuff being published, but I find it therapeutic to write it, so I guess that's all that matters.

Happy Friday!
Ciao,
Sasha

Lyrics

Just wanted to share some lyrics that really struck a chord with me (pardon the pun)...yeah, they're depressing. VERY depressing, but who hasn't had that experience where you have a crush on someone at work and/or school and they don't even notice you're alive?? Hmm, disturbingly similar to my current situation (the liking someone who doesn't notice you're alive, not the wanting to die alone bit).

"Cubicles"

It's the tearing sound of love-notes
Drowning out these gray stained windows
And the view outside is sterile
And I'm only two cubes down
I'd photocopy all the things that we could be
If you took the time to notice me
But you can't now, I don't blame you
And it's not your fault that no one ever does

[Chorus:]
But you don't work here anymore
Its just a vacant 3 by 4
And they might fill your place
A temporary stand-in for your face
This happens all the time
And I can't help but think I'll die alone

So I'll spend my time with strangers
A condition and it's terminal
In this water-cooler romance
And it's coming to a close
We could be in the park and dancing by a tree
Kicking over blades we see
Or a dark beach with a black view
And pin-pricks in the velvet catch our fall

[Chorus]

I know you don't work here anymore [x6]

Sometimes I think I'll die alone, sometimes I think I'll die alone
Sometimes I think I'll die alone, live and breathe and die alone
Sometimes I think I'll die alone, sometimes I think I'll die alone
Sometimes I think I'll die alone, I'd think I'd love to die alone

Just take
I think I'd love to die
Me down
I think I'd love to die
Just take
I think I'd love to die
Me down
I think I'd love to die alone [x4]
Live and breathe and die alone
I think I'd love to die alone [x2]

I think I'd love to die alone

Courtesy of my current musical obsession, My Chemical Romance. They rock.

Green Day

Saw Green Day last night in Detroit and they were awesome. Amazing show! The whole thing was extremely high energy and it was pretty funny watching Billie Joe Armstrong running around and jumping off of speakers and whatnot for two hours. They played some great stuff, "American Idiot", "Jesus of Suburbia", "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" as well as some of the older stuff from Dookie. Armstrong, rather tounge-in-cheek-ish-ly, dedicated "Holiday" to Bush and, rather touchingly, dedicated "Wake Me Up When September Ends" to the heroes of 9/11. It was kind of funny though because they're such a political band and I'd say a very high percentage of their audience wasn't even old enough to have voted in the last election, much less feel particularly disgruntled at the fact that we got stuck with W for a second term. I mean, most of those kids weren't even born, much less really conscious when Green Day's early albums came out. Oh well. I guess I'm being an old curmedgeon. Awesome show though, totally worth the fact that I'm all tired and not happy to be at work right now. Don't really like shows at the Palace though, they're far too big and impersonal, but there's not much I can do about that, is there?

Continuing on the music theme, on a whim I got a ticket to go see My Chemical Romance at EMU next weekend. None of my friends listen to the same music as I do, so I'll most likely be going alone, but I'd rather go alone than not at all. If my brother's wife is cool with it my bro may come along too which would be fun. He's probably one of the few people who shares some of my "harder" musical tastes. I hope its a good show:) I hope I'm not the oldest one there!

Nothing new on the job front, I keep looking but there isn't much out there, especially now that school has started. I suppose its always possible that somebody will get pregnant or a school will realized that they hired a total psycho, fire them and look for someone new, but the liklihood of that is fairly slim. Oh well, I guess I just have to keep trying.

That's it for now.
Ciao,
Sasha

New Music

Well, rather than complain about my lack of job (no new news there) I think I'll focus instead on music. I LOVE music. I don't think I could live without it. I listen in the car, while studying, while grading, while the tv is on, while walking around, while at work...I hate it when I forget my iPod at home or find myself in a car that I can't use my iPod. It makes me nuts. I don't want to think about how much money I've spent over the years on music, but I can also think of a lot worse things to spend money on. An ex-boyfriend once asked me what my top ten cds would be (the sort of, "if you were stranded on a desert island and could only have 10 cds with you, what would you pick" type question. Of course now I'd cheat and take my iPod with ALL my music on it). I thought it would be easy to answer but quickly found to be quite wrong. I mean, 10 cds and that's it! Not even one more? Well, after a long hard think I picked 10. Ask me 10 minutes later and I think I'd change the list. However, for what it's worth, here are the 10 of the hour (in no particular order)...

1. Sarah McLachlan "Fumbling Towards Ecstasy"
2. Nirvana "Nevermind"
3. Green Day "American Idiot"
4. Garbage "Garbage"
5. U2 "Joshua Tree"
6. Soundtrack to "Garden State"
7. Soundtrack to "Hilary and Jackie"
8. Tori Amos "From the Choirgirl Hotel"
9. Mazzy Star "So Tonight That I Might See"
10. The Cranberries "No Need to Argue"

It's bloody impossible to pick. I mean really, I don't know why I even try. I'm super psyched b/c I'm going to see Green Day on the 11th. I've never seen them live before and I think it'll be a blast. In fact, I haven't been to a concert in a few years...the last one was Garbage (great show) so this should be a lot of fun. Too bad it's at the Palace, far too large a venue if you ask me, but it's still better than not seeing them at all.

I've fallen in love with the video for the song "Helena" by My Chemical Romance. It's so cool--very visually striking (and it doesn't hurt that Gerard Way is totally hot--there's something about a guy that can wear eyeliner (I also think Billie Joe Armstrong is totally hot) my discourse on hot guys will have to wait for another posting) and I love the song. I suppose it's pretty obvious that my musical tastes tend towards the depressing :) I don't really understand people that don't listen to music all the time. I've actually not bothered with second dates because our musical tastes (or ideas about music, not necessarily that we don't listen to the same stuff) don't match up--I know it won't work (don't even start with "maybe that's why you don't have a b/f, you're too picky-crap. A girl has to have standards).

Ok, before signing off, here are some awesome MCR lyrics that are the focus of my current obsession:

"Helena"

Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?

[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight


Awesome song!
Ciao,
Sasha