Sunday nights are no fun

Well, another weekend is at its end. Yuck. Can't say I really look forward to going to work tomorrow. Of course, I know I shouldn't complain, the week is only three days for me (day off on Tuesday for an interview and going up to MSU and then the day off for a staff retreat I'm getting out of on Friday). Also looking forward to being on my own this coming weekend-parents out of town, and a Halloween party (quite happy with how my costume is coming along so far:) The interview seemed to go well but who really knows. I mean, I've gotten to this point before and haven't yet been offered a job. I'm supposed to hear sometime the end of next week but I'm not too nervous about it. I figure this won't be any different from the last few and it's pretty hard to keep that momentum/excitement up when I've just been severely disappointed in the past. Whatever.

My mom is back on her kick trying to get me to go to this young adult social group at church. Frankly, the idea makes me cringe. I mean, I can pretty much envision this--most likely a bunch of Jesus Freaks (or Bible Thumpers-call them what you will) and me feeling like a heathen and a hypocrite. I mean, I am hardly the best Catholic and for the most part I'm ok with that, I mean, I've made my choices and I don't regret them. However, being around a bunch of people that are very "good" Catholics, don't mind voicing their "good-Catholic-ness" and feeling like a total heathen in their midst does NOT sound like a fun evening to me. It isn't the fact that I wouldn't know anyone there, it's the fact that religion is involved. My mom is a much more religious person than I am, in fact, I'd say my faith has taken a serious nosedive since attending Catholic grad school and it hasn't improved with this whole job search thing. My mom's answer to a lot of things is to pray about it, well, I'm afraid I've tried that many times in many different situations, and it hasn't seemed to make a difference. I'm a bit skeptical. Well, we'll save my religion rant for another time. Suffice to say, I do not want to go to this young adult church thing. I foresee disaster.

Song quote for today:
"Skylines and Turnstiles"
You're not in this alone
Let me break this awkward silence
Let me go, on record
Be the first to say I'm sorry
Hear me out,
Well if you take me down
Or would you lay me out
And if the world needs something better
Let's give them one more reason now, now, now

We walk in single file
We light our rails and punch our time
Ride escalators colder than a cell

This broken city sky like butane on my skin
and stolen from my eyes
Hello Angel, tell me where are you
Tell me where we go from here

And in this moment we can't close our lids on burning eyes
Our memories blanket us with friends we know like fallout vapor
Steele corpses stretch out towards an ending sun, scorched and black
It reaches in and tears your flesh apart
as ice cold hands rip into your heart

That's if you've still got one that's left inside that cave you call a chest
And after seeing what we saw, can we still reclaim our innocence
And if the world needs something better, let's give them one more reason

Tell me where we go from here.
-My Chemical Romance

Ciao,
Sasha