Sigh...

Well, not that it would be that difficult to have a more interesting life than I have, but I just ran across ultragrrrl's blog and, good god, I want her life! Worst of all, she seems like a fairly normal person, despite the fact that she gets to hang out with, party with and interview some of the most amazing bands. Hmm, I wonder how you get a gig at Spin...must check into that, esp. if this whole teaching thing doesn't work out. No word on the job front, don't ask.

Have hardly done anything at work today, not so much because there's nothing to do (as is sometimes the case) but mostly because I just don't care. The patients annoy me, the doctor is running late, we're short-staffed and I don't give a shit. Yeah, great attitude, I know. Doesn't help that what I have been doing is reading about somebody else's life and it just is so much more interesting than mine is right now.

Not too depressed about the whole lack of a b/f thing, mostly because I've either been too busy to think about it with trying to finish my paper and all or because I've been obsessing over musicians that I will never, ever meet. Futile and a waste of time but it's fun, so bugger off:)

I've been thinking a lot about two things: 1) I want to learn how to play the guitar. Ok, to most people that know me this will seem to come out of nowhere, but I've actually wanted to learn to play for a long time. I just never did anything about it. Well, maybe now's the time to do something. I've done a little researching about it all and the only thing that's in my way is the fact I don't own a guitar. I'm a little nervous about buying a guitar, not so much from the money point but mostly because I haven't the first clue what to get. Sure, I can go to Herb David and talk to them, but I also have this incredible reluctance to look like a complete moron, which, when it comes to guitars, I am. So, basically, my self-consciousness is getting in the way of learning how to play the guitar. I need to do something about this.

The second thing I've been thinking about a lot lately is getting a tattoo. Here's the thing, I like the idea of a tattoo but 1) I still haven't come up with a design that I'm cool with having for the rest of my natural life. 2) I'm chickenshit when it comes to pain. 3) My mom would literally kill me if I got one and she found out. Of course the killing me part might solve the problem of being stuck with a stupid tattoo for years and years as I'd probably not live very long past the time she found out (so, basically I could be dead by the time I'm 28). Well, it isn't too likely that I'll do anything about this in the near future. I'll try to deal with the guitar stuff first, while my mom is likely to think I'm nuts, the likelihood of a homicide occurring is far less.

Music update: V. much like Alkaline Trio. The album "Crimson" rocks, and I LOVE the songs "Dethbed" and "Sadie". Just downloaded one of their earlier albums "Good Mourning" (hah, get it? Yeah, I'm a total dork) and am listening to it right now. Some good stuff but I haven't really been able to listen to it yet since I'm at work. I'll save it for the car. Weirdly enough, I find the car one of the best places to listen to new music--you can turn it up loud and really listen to it. Yeah, so, in summary, check out Alkaline Trio.

That's it for now,
Ciao,
Sasha