The job search

Well, without a doubt, searching for an English teaching position is akin to climbing Everest. No, I'm not doing it because it's "there," (I wouldn't be putting myself through this stress just because "it's there") and as we get closer and closer to the beginning of the school year, I feel more and more like I'm not going to find a job. If I don't get something in the next two weeks, I'm screwed.

Had what I thought was a good interview for a position at a local high school yesterday afternoon. Walked out of it feeling quite confident. Got the call today that they gave the job to somebody who had two years' experience more than I did. This sucks. I know that a lot of schools hire teachers in the last few days of the summer, but I don't know if I can handle this stress for *maybe* a job to be offered in two weeks or so. I'm going to have a bloody heart-attack as it is.

That's maybe the worst thing about teaching. If you don't get a job by the time September rolls around you probably will have to wait an entire year before any new positions open up unless something miraculous happens. So, if I don't find something in the next few weeks, I'm not really sure what I'll do. I don't have experience besides teaching, so getting a job in marketing or something like that is fairly unlikely. What am I going to do? I have very little money, a temporary job that doesn't give me health insurance (my insurance runs out at the end of August, so I either need a job that gives me insurance or I need to buy insurance which brings me back to the no money problem). I live at home with my parents who, though they're wonderful people, I am too OLD to be living at home. I feel like a total loser living at home and it isn't that I wouldn't move to my own place if I could, but I can't (back to the money problem)!

I look at my younger brother and he really has his life together. He got married in June to a great woman, they bought a cute house, they adopted a kitten, they both have good, full-time, insurance-providing jobs that pay well...what more could they ask for? And me? Single (no prospects on the horizon), work in a dead-end, no-benefits job that is boring and pays crap, can't find a job in the field I LOVE working in, and I live at home.

Very depressing. Yes, I'm whiney. Yes, I'm feeling sorry for myself and I know it. It's been a bad week, forgive me for the whininess. If I could just find a good job things would be so much better.
Here's to hoping.