First timer

Ok, so, I've never had a blog before, this is definitely a first. I've always kept journals, but starting a blog was inspired by the complete and utter boredom I'm feeling at work today. I'm a grad student so I'm just temping for the summer at a hospital clinic (plastic surgery--weird in general) and today there are hardly any patients scheduled. I actually like really busy days b/c it makes the time go a lot faster. I'd rather be busy than bored.

My brother and his fiancee just bought a house. It's pretty crazy, I can't quite conceive of it. I mean, he's three years younger than me and he's going to be married in a month, move into his own house in about a week and is starting a great new job as an engineer. I, on the other hand, will be in grad school for the rest of my life (well, at least it feels that way). I really want the degree and I generally enjoy school, but part of me also would like to feel like a "grown up." You know, have an actual salary instead of just incurring tuition related debt, have my own place instead of living in sub-par grad housing...sometimes I just wonder if it really is worth making this long haul. I could go back to teaching in high school (did it for a few years) but I really love teaching college aged kids. Dilemmas, dilemmas. It would be nice if I could actually find a boyfriend too. It seems like all the guys at my school are either weird, priests, married or just jerks. If there are any normal guys there, they sure are doing a good job of hiding. It gets very frustrating, and (yes, this is bratty of me) it kind of stings that my brother found somebody he loves (who loves him back) pretty easily. Don't get me wrong, I love my brother and his fiancee is great, but there is that childish side of me that wants to know, "when will it be my turn??"

Ok, enough self-loathing and whininess for now.
Ciao,
Sasha